For a little over a month now, I feel as though the Lord has placed me in a fiery furnace of testing & trials. I feel that the heat has been cranked way up and I am trapped with no escape. There for a few days I was beginning to think that this was getting too rough, I am not sure I can go on. I was feeling like a failure because I was allowing things to get to me very easily.
The Lord has really showed me a lot. I see now that everything man does or everything man says is nothing but vanity. The only things that will account for anything in this life is what we do for Jesus. Nothing else matters. The bible says in Isaiah 64:6 "But we are all as an unclean thing, and all our righteousnesses are as filthy rags; and we all do fade as a leaf;...." This bible verse speaks volumes. Man is so frail and anything that we do outside of God is nothing but vanity. If we are not saying or doing something that will uplift, encourage, exhort, magnify, and glorify God, then it does not matter. Our best efforts are nothing but dust in the wind.
I had a dream a while back about a package that arrived to my dad and me. Inside the package was a blank, white sheet of paper, a book, & a white blanket. On the blanket was writing. Some of the writing I couldn't read but in the bottom right hand corner of the blanket it was addressed to me. It said:
"Angie,
Can a good man goeth to heaven?
Can the grass or flowers liveth forever?"
Of course, the answer to both questions is no. I think this was the beginning of God showing me that man is nothing in himself. It takes God in everything we do. We cannot go to heaven just because we are "good". Even on our best day we are never really good. The only good thing within us is the Lord. And that is the only way any man can get to heaven is through Jesus Christ. Jesus said "I am the way, the truth, & the life. No man cometh unto the Father, but by me." (John 14:6) It takes us coming to the realization that we have all have sinned. There is no way of getting out of it. We all have sinned & fallen short of the glory of God; (Romans 3:23) The time we have on this earth is short. Man will not live forever except that he be born again of the water & the spirit (John 3:5). Once we are born of the water & the spirit we then can enter the kingdom of God through our faith in the Lord Jesus Christ and the work He has done on Calvary.
The Lord has been "uprooting" things in my heart that I didn't even know were there. When the Lord goes through this process of digging out all the deep roots of fleshly things in our lives, it hurts severely. I tell you first hand it is very painful & you just wish it would already be over. I was to the point that I was feeling like I was going crazy. I was all emotional & touchy. I had no idea right away what I was going through. I noticed too that the Lord took down His "hedge" that He had put up around me. But there was a reason & a purpose for it. He allowed it to uncover things that were still inside me that needed to be taken out. If we want to truly be used of the Lord we have to have all lust & desires of the flesh totally emptied out of us. The Bible says in James 3:11 "Doth a fountain send forth at the same place sweet water & bitter?" If we truly want to be sold out to God & have His perfect will in our lives we must completely die out to flesh. Not that we won't still make mistakes but ultimately the love of God will reign within us. We won't have outburst of anger, jealousy, hatred, envying, strife or any other fleshly action.
I truly do want everything that is inside me to be "uprooted" and "cast into the flame" to be burnt up forever more. In the beginning I was questioning the Lord. I was saying "Why me God?" But He reminded me that I said that I loved Him and I wanted to be used by Him in a great way. When you talk to the Lord be sure to watch what you say. Cause you will get everything you ask for. There is pain in the offering that we bring. If there was no pain, there would be no offering.
"But he knoweth the way that I take: when he hath tried me, I shall come forth as gold." (Job 23:10) I now see that I should be thankful that I am accounted worthy to be tried in the fire. This means that the Lord is working on me & that He is going to use me. It is a painful process & it seems very lonely too. However, even though I feel lonely, I know that my feelings can lead me astray, I know that my Lord & my Best Friend is always there in my time of need. Just like the 3 Hebrew boys, although their faith was being tested, Jesus was right in the furnace with them. Today He is in the same furnace of trials & afflictions with us.
Saturday, July 17, 2010
Monday, July 12, 2010
High Time!!
On June 2, 2010 I was getting ready to pray before I went to bed as I always do. I got down on my knees & began to pray. I thought this was going to be just like any other time I prayed. But it wasn't, it was far from it.
I had just gotten off of a 7 day fast & I believe this was the reason I had this awesome encounter with the Lord. I could hear His voice so clearly. I mean it was like He was in the same room with me, sitting right next to me. He had given me a vision while praying of Him standing behind me & placing His right hand on my left shoulder. In my vision as He was placing His hand on my shoulder I actually felt a hand on my shoulder. This sort of freaked me out in the beginning. If you have ever had an encounter similar to this you know what I am talking about. You shouldn't be scared of the Lord but I guess there is a fear of the unknown. We are human after all & God is a Spirit.
Anyways, I began speaking in tongues & the Lord began to speak through me. He began to say "I am coming. It will not be too much longer. I am about to return." Then I had a vision of Jesus coming in the clouds, with His arms stretched open wide. In my vision I could not see His face. He kept repeating, it is High time!
He began to speak to me again and said, "My people have got comfortable. Too long have they sat down. It is time for them to get up & stand for the day draweth nigh. Satan has only a short while & he is working overtime. This means My people must work even harder in these few final hours. You have the power in you & with you. My Word is power, truth, & life. With My Word you can do all things." After this I just felt a love that I have never in my life felt before. My heart was consumed with love for God. I mean all I could do for a while was just tell Him how much I loved Him. He then let me feel just a tad bit of love that He had for us. If He had of let me feel anymore my heart would of burst. He is longing for His children, He wants us to come home.
Without the Word, we are nothing in ourself. The devil laughs & mocks when we try to do things in ourself. But when the Word is used he puts his tail between his legs & runs off like a scalded dog. The Word is sharper than any two-edged sword.
The Lord has given me many things in just the past 6 months on His return. I have had dreams about the seals, visions of His return, & this latest dream about the clock & the candle. I know that the Lord is giving me all this for a reason. I pray that God's will be done & that I can deliver what He has given me to His people the way He wants it delivered.
I had just gotten off of a 7 day fast & I believe this was the reason I had this awesome encounter with the Lord. I could hear His voice so clearly. I mean it was like He was in the same room with me, sitting right next to me. He had given me a vision while praying of Him standing behind me & placing His right hand on my left shoulder. In my vision as He was placing His hand on my shoulder I actually felt a hand on my shoulder. This sort of freaked me out in the beginning. If you have ever had an encounter similar to this you know what I am talking about. You shouldn't be scared of the Lord but I guess there is a fear of the unknown. We are human after all & God is a Spirit.
Anyways, I began speaking in tongues & the Lord began to speak through me. He began to say "I am coming. It will not be too much longer. I am about to return." Then I had a vision of Jesus coming in the clouds, with His arms stretched open wide. In my vision I could not see His face. He kept repeating, it is High time!
He began to speak to me again and said, "My people have got comfortable. Too long have they sat down. It is time for them to get up & stand for the day draweth nigh. Satan has only a short while & he is working overtime. This means My people must work even harder in these few final hours. You have the power in you & with you. My Word is power, truth, & life. With My Word you can do all things." After this I just felt a love that I have never in my life felt before. My heart was consumed with love for God. I mean all I could do for a while was just tell Him how much I loved Him. He then let me feel just a tad bit of love that He had for us. If He had of let me feel anymore my heart would of burst. He is longing for His children, He wants us to come home.
Without the Word, we are nothing in ourself. The devil laughs & mocks when we try to do things in ourself. But when the Word is used he puts his tail between his legs & runs off like a scalded dog. The Word is sharper than any two-edged sword.
The Lord has given me many things in just the past 6 months on His return. I have had dreams about the seals, visions of His return, & this latest dream about the clock & the candle. I know that the Lord is giving me all this for a reason. I pray that God's will be done & that I can deliver what He has given me to His people the way He wants it delivered.
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